Friday, June 30, 2006
I still cant get over spain getting out from the world cup. I mean, how can it be? Rahh and i are totally upset. i didnt get a chance to blog about this since i was preoccupied with.. stuff. Bear and wich have open house tomorrow, and they're complaining about that :D
I've got a new favourite word ; GIRLFRIEND. and this word's causing me hell. my head was probing with pain today and yesterday, luckily there was bear, and wich. but i don't know which hurts more, my heart or mind. I passed a letter to them in class, and wrote i'm eating a SWEET, but why does it taste so sour? shi wo xin suan ma? I don't know. I'm trying to be indifferent about the whole thing, but it isnt that easy. Mich knows me so well, she guessed my favourite word. It used to have two letters, but now, it has gotten more complicated and long. Bear wasnt too bad, she guess PUNKSTAR, my second favourite word. In any case, it refers to the same person.
I spent a long long time talking to jas on the phone ytd. I felt that everything i said was wrong. But it came from inside. This whole thing is affecting my mood, no wonder i couldnt study nor complete the amath test today. But when i thought it over, i thought you were more important. But you don't seem to feel so. Jas says i should get over it, but even my wallpaper's of you. Tell me, what should i do? Jas says im too soft-hearted and suffer for others, but i just cant help it. I cant afford to be selfish and just have things my way. Force doesnt work. Not in my case, at least. Tell me, can you even feel me?
GIRLFRIEND, show me some love.
It's a beautiful disguise.